A vast question: which came first, knowledge or love? The conflict between emotional and rational convictions may perhaps have no answer at all, and yet it is worth pondering.
If you look at your own life, love came first, for the unfolding of your reason, your birth and even your conception were all preceded by love, by your parents' love. And love sometimes brings a loss of consciousness, a heady, self-forgetful daze… To speak of knowledge to a lover…? A futile attempt. Perhaps just as futile as speaking of love to a dry scholar – neither understands the other's language, nor wishes to speak it. To discourse on happiness and rapture from the standpoint of theory, of philosophising, is an exceedingly dry affair, but to examine philosophy from the standpoint of joy – that is far more satisfying. Perhaps this hints at what may have come first, or, better still, at which is the more important?
Some claim that one can love only what one knows, while others, quite the reverse, come to know things through love. Undoubtedly, if something is to be loved, some prior acquaintance with it is needed, and at the very least we must be aware of the thing's existence.
Knowing, however, often has strange consequences. There are some who, having come to know the nature of animals, find the behaviour of people ever harder to tolerate…
When we speak of knowledge not as information but as a principle, we may say that knowledge purifies and leads to love. Let us leave aside for now that knowledge can at times be a dead end and a negation. Knowledge reaches its perfection when one has no expectations and no attachments, when one's strivings are guided no longer by material interest, by selfish motive, or even by a sense of duty, but by the spontaneous love that wells up from the heart.
Experiencing shows itself in the body as sensations, in consciousness as thoughts, and in the soul as love. (Merezhkovsky)
When love is no longer a feeling but a way of approaching the world, it is easier to grant anything and anyone the trust, given in advance, that may become the source of knowing and of love.
If we examine the question ontologically: which came first, knowledge or love? then we answer according to the leanings of our worldview. The materialist scientist will probably assert the primacy of knowledge, the fervent believer the primacy of love, and the mystic who has reached a high level of philosophy will perhaps speak of the two as each presupposing the other's existence. And each of them is right. Everything depends on the premise, on the standpoints of the inquiry, on the yardstick and on the observer.
Let us suppose that the source of the universe is the supreme intellect, which brings forth everything else: the worlds, time, beings, man and love. Then, in order of time, knowledge came first. But if we look at which is the more important, the more elemental, then love is uppermost. It is said that theology and philosophy are the passion of man, and of only a few men at that, whereas even a dove pays homage to love when it raises its young. Thus love is more universal than knowledge.
Knowing based on love is thorough, but it can distort. A loving mother may call her sightless child star-eyed – which is wrong in fact, yet in love is true. Compared with this, factual knowing, knowledge, falls short. Undoubtedly, knowing based on hatred is intense as well, but it too distorts. In the person we hate we think we see even traits no one ever suspected, but if we had to choose between the two distorting ways of seeing, knowing based on love and knowing based on hatred, it would be better to choose the former.
Man is called at once a rational being and an emotional being. If you could choose whether to know or to love – which would you choose? And the question is not even which came first, but which of them is the more lasting.